The pain of obedience.
Sometimes, God asks us to make hard decisions. Ones that are painful. They aren’t painful because He wants to bring us harm, they’re painful because we are so attached to the idea of how our lives should take form. The detachment from our plans are what shakes us. Thankfully after a while, the dusts settles. The terrain clears, the pain receives comfort and in part understanding is wrestled with. And peace, alas-remains.
I’ve been here more times than I could have ever predicted. When we plan our lives, we don’t plan on abandoning them. We plan them with the purpose of following through. But, as you and I could see, friend, it doesn’t go that way.
In humility we recognize our humanity can’t be compared to God’s sovereignty.
I remember hanging up the phone after a phone call I put off for 8 months. Yea! That. But the resounding voice I heard in my heart continued until I finally submitted. That voice led me with these words at the forefront of my unplanned, hard, heart hurting decision.
“In order to embrace, you have to let go.”
There’ve been times I questioned my obedience, because it was painful & frankly, very difficult. In the moment that I followed through, I had the grace + peace. Yet, in the time that followed, pain followed the words I shared.
I’m often reminded that difficulty doesn’t mean that it’s not God’s plan. Doing the hard thing and the right thing are sometimes the same thing. If we choose grit and not submission to our comfort, we’ll get to the heart of why God asked this difficult thing of us.
Gosh, I wish I could take away or subside the pain you’ve faced when it came to those painful yet obedient decisions but…that’ll be unjust to your development. “Not only so, but we also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope.” Romans 5:4 NIV
I can however comfort you because I’ve been comforted by the hands themselves, that formed the earth. Hard decisions lean us in to trust God when we don’t understand His ways, and believe He won’t lead us wrongly. He sees past our current seasons and knows that if we don’t submit to His leading, our future will be affected + deformed from His intent. He works all things for good because He is good. But consequences + the challenges from delaying His following are hard, even though we are covered by His love and grace.
So, today, lean in to obey. It isn’t to harm you but to lead you into the future He has for you. When He thought of you, He thought of the good it would bring to the earth. His purpose for the world includes you.
And one day, just as I have realized, the journey was worth it, He made sense of it over time. In His kindness, He helps us understand when we can handle it.
And if I’m being completely honest today, sometimes He has to give you permission to do what you were afraid to do. It’s not blaming God, but confirmation of what your discernment told you all along.
So to recap…
Reasons why obedience is painful from my experience
-It isn’t a part of your plan
-We don’t understand why you’re asked to make the decision
-We want approval and acceptance
-We are afraid of what others think
A few things help you through
-Remember what He told you
-Trust God’s heart for you
-Always Go to the word and align it with your decision
-Depend on the peace he gave you especially when you submitted
-Consider that the pain of obedience doesn’t compare to the consequences disobedience
You’re not alone, friend! Someone else, myself included, has been through what you are going through and they are on the other side of making that hard but right decision.
Jeremiah 29:11: For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
In it with you,